being the mother i want to be.

i see myself as a mother first, i’m so lucky to have that role in life. the world can like me, hate me or fall apart around me but as long as my child is happy and taken care of, that’s all that matters to me.

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"so hold on tight, it goes so quick"

being a mother, there are days when i can barely hold my own head up and days when i feel like i can take on the world. and that's okay to feel like that. don't let anyone validate your feelings for you. it's NORMAL, i promise. even if it is all in the same day.

"STOP!" would you just "STOP!" i yell from across the house at my son. then you hear another BANG. it almost feels like a never ending cycle. i know it's hard, mama. when things never go right and your kids are just making it so much worse. they say it's all apart of it, which is true. but i'm telling you those moments when your baby crawls up beside you or comes running into your arms. it makes you forget that your throat is even scratched up sore from yelling earlier. it's the moments like these that make you forget. even if it is just for a split second. about how the rent is going to get paid, or just all the cruel things that are in this world. cherish that moment for as long as you can. hold on tight, because it doesn't last. it goes so quick. because this moment...really is what being a mother is all about.

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i still remember when i first looked at you. you’ll stop worrying about this and that. and start worrying about everything else.

well actually, your whole life is going to be a dance between love and fear. you’re going to love your child so completely and because of that you’re going to be afraid of everything bad in the world..

and this is just the beginning.

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-Elise Gribbins-